How I write how i'm feeling in here, but anyway, i feel like crap.

I love my boyfriend, more than ANYONE could know.
But my ex.
He was my first love.
and nothing can change that.
When I see him go out with other people, it hurts alot.
and, [I know this is going to sound really stupid] He took me off of his top.
We've been friends for a long time, AFTER we broke up.
We broke up 3 years ago. We've been really close.
But i'm nowhere to be seen with ANYTHING of his.
its like, hes trying to forget everything about me.

I didn't do anything to offend him, or make him mad or anything!
i'm like, pretty much gone from him life and I don't want it to be like that!!
I love him.
I don't know what to do.

Help?